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A Testimony Before Reconciliation

I am a murderer and I have been in prison for twenty-three years. My death sentence has not been carried out and I have had the opportunity to repent and turn my hardened heart over to God and His mercy.

My prison cell is not a small room with bars on the windows that physically restrain me. My prison is a spiritual prison. It is a prison of darkest despair where sin has separated me from God and others. My prison cell is full of all the hideous things I have done; it is full of hate, anger and pride. I was sentenced here twenty three years ago when I sinned against God.

The murders were legal by man's laws; the Supreme Court said I had the right to control my own body. I was free to choose. One murder was paid for by the public university which I attended. It was part of my "health benefits." It was free. But that freedom to choose put me in this prison called sin. Abortion is not a choice. It is murder. It is against God's laws. It's sinful.

That sin has separated me from God. I want out of prison and the only way out is to repent and ask for God's mercy and forgiveness. It has taken me twenty-three years to repent. First, I had to realize the falsehoods I had come to believe about abortion were untrue. He makes the blind to see. What I had done was terribly wrong. But the horror of the truth is terrifying. It's here that I have another choice. My despair can lead to death of Life. Who am I to try to ask for forgiveness? Has Jesus Christ died for my sins too? I come with a humbled heart asking for mercy and forgiveness. Can God forgive me? Can my children forgive me? Can I hope for reconciliation with God and my children? Can I get out of prison?

* The writer has come to the realization that the answer to all her questions are YES.

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