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Child Lost; Angel Found

Dearest Cecilia,

This is your mother writing to you for many reasons. The most important reason is to ask you to mercifully forgive me for the terrible sin that I committed against you. Our Heavenly Father has forgiven my sin, and I do believe that with all my heart. I have tried for many years to forgive myself. I know that to be fully healed I must forgive myself. I have such deep regret and sorrow over what I have done, that this is very difficult for me. But I believe that if you forgive me and accept me as your mother, my pain will be greatly diminished. Please forgive me for I grieve for you very much.

I believe that you are happy, healthy and living in joy with our Heavenly Father and our Savior, Jesus Christ. I pray that when I die, I will be united with you in heaven, but that is something only God can decide. I can picture you in my mind. I know that you are beautiful, smart and strong.

Let me just tell you a few words about your earthly father because I sinned against him too. He is a very nice man. He has a great sense of humor. We were very good friends. But we went our separate ways, and I never told him about you. He does not know that you are his child.

I have several reasons for naming you Cecilia. You would have been born in November. Cecilia is the saint of the 22nd of November, and I will celebrate that date as your birthday. Saint Cecilia is the patron saint of music, and it was through music that I came to face the reality of what I had done and also to believe in your happy existence in Heaven. I also dream that you have the voice of an angel.

I believe that if God’s grace grants us reunion in Heaven, that you will comfort me with your sweet voice - the child who comforts the mother.

I love you and you will always be in my heart. Help me receive the peace I so desperately cry for. Be my child and let me be your mother.

Through the grace of God and the compassion of Jesus who washes away sin,

Your mom

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