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Dear David

David,

It has been thirteen years and I have not forgotten or stopped loving you. I have continued with my life, but you are always here. Even though I never held your tiny hand or touched your silken hair, you grew inside of me and you will forever be in my heart.

You are precious to me and will always be remembered and loved. I know you are with GOD and He has welcomed you with open arms. I am sorry I could not do the same for you. When you were in my womb, all I felt was fear. I was not strong enough to turn to GOD for help. I am sorry, David, for not having the faith in GOD when you were with me.

I wish I could turn back time and change the events of the day I killed you. The day you were sucked out of me and thrown into a cold silvery coffin. How awful for you. Will you ever forgive me for doing this to you? Some people believe that you were not a child when I killed you, but I know differently.

I Wish I could embrace you and take back the pain I caused you and have you in my life to raise with love and devotion. But instead I have guilt, grief, and a sense of loss for what I have done. Your spirit lives in my heart and I long for you. David, live gloriously in heaven as you will live forever in my heart. By the mercy of GOD's grace, I know I am forgiven and I will be reunited with you someday. Blessed be GOD for his wonderful matchless Grace!

Good-bye David. When you look upon Earth, see the unending love that is in my heart for you and know that you have a family on Earth as well as in Heaven.

Love always,
Mommy

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